Androgynous Mind

Eminem songs make my heart happy. I had the chance to get laid, but I decided against it. I just got my tongue repierced for the first time since I lost it 6 years to today. I went with Ash. (I'm referring to everyone as their surname... 10 dollar word.)


Holy shit I don't remember it hurting this much. But I was on a lot of pills back then. I have Biotene and advil liquigels. I'm just wondering how long it's going to take my parents to notice what I've done. Heh. I totally fell through with a commitment for once. A stupid one, but it makes me happy. Painful at first. As all commitments usually are...

I had a weird dream about Mike last night. I'm still too hung up on his stupid pathetic ass. I need to stop, drop and roll.


Fuck, I hate everything right now>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Next Day (Sunday)

I have been having very strange, very vivid dreams about my ex all week now and it's really fucking bothering me. I'm finally starting to get over him and then my sub-conscience is not letting me. Maybe it's because it's the year anniversary of him moving to his new place and me moving back here.

I still love him. I still miss him. I'm finally accepting that a part of me will always feel that way and that it's okay to feel that way about someone you spent a big chunk of your life with. I've known him for half of my life. That's gonna be a slow healing scar. But the good thing is I do feel myself healing and letting go.

My solitary follower suggested that my using music titles would make for more hits for my blog. I never even thought of that, but that's kinda cool. And makes sense. But I'm not sure all of my music is too mainstream or relevant. Bleh... I'm not really all that original, so that's a bit pompouse.

Whatever. If you're bored enouh to read my nonsense, I want you to know it is appreciated. Now I am on a mission for Ben & Jerry's to soothe this poor tongue.