Bitter, much?

Holy shit, I read my last post. That was some anger. Whoa... I even used MM's girly-girl's real name (Rosie Meyers for the record, heh). Yeah, I can be kinda vicious. Today is the 2 year anniversary of our initial break up. Exactly a year ago was the last time we slept together, also. Because he is a sick, sadistic, twisted evil piece of shit. Actually, he prolly didn't even realize or was cognizant enough to realize what day it was when we last slept together. He was prolly too fucked up on pills.

Another friend sees him in pretty much the same view. He's been a lousy friend to her for the better part of a decade. He's been a lousy person probably since he was born. If I am ever in his presence again, I will refuse to acknowledge him. He's not worthy of my attention. This post will be the last I mention him.

I'm going to focus all of my energy into improving myself and being the best I can be. I'm going to lose 20 pounds. I'm going to get a bind eventually. The number of calls I've made has been getting higher and higher. I have really awesome friends who keep me motivated and help cheer me on. I'm forever thankful to them.

I'm struggling to stay out of the dark place my heart is tempted to fall into. I have to get some tests done tomorrow and see if there is anything really wrong with me. It's more than likely not anything, but my wild imagination takes things to the limit and beyond.

I'm going to start a beauty regimen. People already think I'm at least 5 years younger than I am, so I'm going to maintain that. I still haven't developed any wrinkles or grey hair. I know.... It's vain and stupid to care about. But I'm going to be awesome and everyone s going to know it. So no more ugly nasty posts about people from the past that don't matter.

Just talked to a guy I'm currently crushing on a little bit... We shall see where this goes ::blush::