Wonderboy

Had a good weekend. Did the Celtic Festival in St. Auggie. Spent an obscene amount of money, but it went to hand crafted things and small business vendors. So it's okay. I will rationalize just about anything. It's kinda scary.

So there's a new form of passive-aggression on FB. It's these stupid little cartoons. Bitstrips. Some of them are funny and lighthearted. But Ocean... well, she is who she is. And for some reason she feels threatened by me. I'm not going into it on public forum. This is not LiveJournal and I'm not the same person I once was. But damnit... the stuff she tags me in gets seen by more than just me. And that kinda pisses me off. But I feed it just as much as she does which makes me no better. But yeah...

It's weird. I feel like I manifest certain things into happening when I go back and look at my trends and then the series of events that go on and the time frames. It makes me a bit paranoid. It disconcerts me. But I'm just gonna chock it up to being more in tuned to certain things and let it rest. My poor brain has a hard enough time processing day to day shit. I don't need to think about shit that doesn't affect me directly. I'll look at it 6 weeks from now. Ha.

I need to step up my game at work. They took me aside and talked to me about it. The first thing I did was dispose of my "escape route". I told the counselor about said disposal, but not the reason for disposal. I can't take the easy way out. It's not worth it. Anything worth having doesn't really come easy anyways. You can't value it if you didn't work a lil bit for it.

The traffic on my blog is up. I dunno if it's because I went back and read a lot of it and it registered as traffic (which it shouldn't). I know of one other person who's read it recently, but I dunno if said person read that much of my nonsensical babbling. And now it makes me think Ocean is going to read it. Not that I talk about her very much in it. I have my own life to live and she isn't very much a part of it anymore. It is what it is.  But now I read a lot of the stuff that has high traffic on it, and I could see how my over-generalization could be misconstrued. And how some stuff... yeah, my timing is just fucking creepy. I wish I was more off. I'll just try to trick my mind into thinking I have no idea of what I'm talking about.